Flight of the Concords - Foux Da Fa Fa

france misses me, i miss you france

searching and 1st callback

the living room in the la apt

I have been looking for a job (seriously started mid-june) and realizing just as in my last job search that work experience is what I am seriously lacking. I am not sure what career I want just yet, I am down to learn and gain any kind of experience. I've wanted to be a teacher, graphic designer, photographer, and just something creative. I've worked as a teaching assistant and tutor so I have experience in the educational field. I am looking for work related to schools (teachers aide, afterschool, tutor, & nanny) or for just any work. I have been using indeed.org, craigslist.org, and edjoin.org to look for work and I have also informed anyone around me that I'm looking for work. I have my mom looking with relatives and giving me numbers to call. At this point I've applied to about 20 positions and I accepted a position. I was offered another temp job but I felt, that this position was better.

I will start working a week from today. Its a part time position but I am pleased that I will be moving back home and at least have a job for the moment and be able to live a little. I would love to eventually have a 2nd job and will be trying for one. I have to wear a uniform for the first time since I was in elementary school myself, which I totally hate and wish I didn't have to at all. I am feeling that its almost an investment to start this job because of all the costs involved in acquiring the job (uniform, fingerprints, cpr class, & transcripts)... and I hope its a means for my future as well.

(note: i started this post mid july and finished it today)

Insomnia Thoughts

I've been meaning to write these thoughts down for a few days/weeks. I want to be more and do more (now!). Since I've come back home, most things have returned to the state they used to be. I remember thinking and saying how I didnt want to return to the same life. I'm not saying that I am unhappy about my life just that there are many things I would like to improve on mainly ... lack of employment, just lack of focus, and lack of real friendships. I want to go out and do things. I know that the biggest road blocks are just all in my head and caring what people think. I want to not give a hoot and start living and just be. I want to be putting myself out there.

I hate to think about things or most of the time I am just living for the 'day', this has to stop. I've been worried about being personal online about writing my feelings but as I've decided to work on not caring ... I want to start blogging about my mission to be earning a living, to move out and move in with my partner, to gain more out of life. Its hard to explain whats been holding me back and I know its just this feeling that I'm not good enough or like the others.

Taken right before I wrote this because it just didn't feel like a post without a picture, with my "C" from Spain wearing my backup glasses.