12 in 2012

i wanted to look back on 2012, super late but oh well!

1. traveled alone to Amsterdam & Madrid

2. celebrated 5 years with my partner :)

3. tried to teach conservational English to bored French high school students

4. came home after living in france // moved in family home

5. long-distance relationship :\

6. i started flossing (most of the time) 

7. read 31 books

8. got my first (2nd ish) post-college part-time job

9. drove on the freeway (a few times), i hate to drive but something i still have to completely conquer 

10. grew my hair for the entire year

11. made three youtube videos and then stopped ... hahaha

12. got my first graphic design internship !!! & its still going :D

#blockfriday

i am celebrating a belated thanksgiving with my extended family that i havent seen in ages! i dont normally participate in black friday and dont plan on it this year. things never make you happy, lets not shop :)

☾

• ☾: post photo of yourself

    taken just now to answer this question

• æ : tell 5 things about your best friend
• 1. part time lover + full time best friend
• 2. pretty good at guitar / awesome at band names 
• 3. likes gummi candy, candy corn, & circus peanuts
• 4. LOVES is addicted to diet coke
• 5. can quote tons of cheesy 90s movies
• 
  
• ✌: share 5 things that you really want
• 1. new glasses or new to me glasses
• 2. road bike (used)
• 3. replace my recently lost monroe (just spent like an hour looking for one i would actually want to buy)
• 4. full-time employment/money
• 5. to live in/with the same place as my boy
• 
  
• ☮ : share 5 favourite movies
• 1. thin blue line
• 2. magnolia
• 3. rushmore
• 4. lost in translation
• 5. the graduate
• 
  
• ❂ : share 5 favourite foods
• 1. shrimp fried rice from chinese friends
• 2. chicken kabob from tasty burger
• 3. bean & cheese / breakfast burrito from san diego mexican food places
• 4. the loaded potato skins from wood ranch
• 5. bbq chopped salad
• 
  
• ☯ : share 5 person you love being with
• 1. daniel
• 2. jessica 
• 3. arun 
• need to stop being such a loner/be better at making friends, am taking applications :) 
• 
  
• ☪ : share 5 favourite celebrities
• 1. bill murrary
• 2. the beatles
• 3. meryl streep
• 4. britney spears 
• 5. beyoncé
• 
  
• ❀ : share favourite thing you do when you get bored
• not sure i have a favorite thing but to be honest its kill time on youtube watching howto/style beauty videos, awful habit that needs to stop or read my rss feed
• 
  
• ♡ : share 5 favourite songs
• 1. sunshine of your love by cream
• 2. my my, hey hey (out of the blue) by neil young and crazy horse
• 3. almost cut my hair by crosby, stills, nash & young
• 4. someday soon by harlem
• 5. declaration of war by little toys
• 
  
• ❁: share 5 favourite blogs
• 1. http://daintysquid.blogspot.com/
• 2. http://www.mapsandfragments.com/
• 3. http://www.katielouiseford.com/
• 4. http://www.arestlesstransplant.com/
• 5. http://garconniere.tumblr.com/ (where i found this)
• 
  
• ✓: tell 5 facts about yourself
• 1. i am my own harsh critic but lazy.
• 2. i have my office space within the bathroom space ... there is a wall in between and an opening for a door that is yet to be installed.
• 3. i love dr pepper ... too much ruined my teeth.
• 4. i don't have many any friends but I am friendly person just a bit of a loner.
• 5. i have horrible time management and can kill days on the computer not doing much of anything :(
• 
  
• ♧ : share 5 facts about your appearance
• 1. I am short 5'1".
• 2. I have brown eyes and hair (BORING!)
• 3. I have bad pimply skin currently and scars and all. 
• 4. I don't shave my armpits but I hardly ever wear sleeveless shirts.
• 5. I don't have any tattoos, yet.
• 
  
• ☆: share your current mood
• lonely, hungry, and a bit chilly. just okay.
• 
  
• ♒ : share about your crush
• none
• 
  
• ☀ : something that made me smile today
• seeing the kids in costumes 
• 
  
• ✖ : something you hate
• politics 
• 
  
• ☼ : something you love
• my macbook pro
• 
  
• ϟ : ask anything
• whats your biggest dream/goal?
• what do you want to change from your life?

( from )

searching and 1st callback

the living room in the la apt

I have been looking for a job (seriously started mid-june) and realizing just as in my last job search that work experience is what I am seriously lacking. I am not sure what career I want just yet, I am down to learn and gain any kind of experience. I've wanted to be a teacher, graphic designer, photographer, and just something creative. I've worked as a teaching assistant and tutor so I have experience in the educational field. I am looking for work related to schools (teachers aide, afterschool, tutor, & nanny) or for just any work. I have been using indeed.org, craigslist.org, and edjoin.org to look for work and I have also informed anyone around me that I'm looking for work. I have my mom looking with relatives and giving me numbers to call. At this point I've applied to about 20 positions and I accepted a position. I was offered another temp job but I felt, that this position was better.

I will start working a week from today. Its a part time position but I am pleased that I will be moving back home and at least have a job for the moment and be able to live a little. I would love to eventually have a 2nd job and will be trying for one. I have to wear a uniform for the first time since I was in elementary school myself, which I totally hate and wish I didn't have to at all. I am feeling that its almost an investment to start this job because of all the costs involved in acquiring the job (uniform, fingerprints, cpr class, & transcripts)... and I hope its a means for my future as well.

(note: i started this post mid july and finished it today)

Insomnia Thoughts

I've been meaning to write these thoughts down for a few days/weeks. I want to be more and do more (now!). Since I've come back home, most things have returned to the state they used to be. I remember thinking and saying how I didnt want to return to the same life. I'm not saying that I am unhappy about my life just that there are many things I would like to improve on mainly ... lack of employment, just lack of focus, and lack of real friendships. I want to go out and do things. I know that the biggest road blocks are just all in my head and caring what people think. I want to not give a hoot and start living and just be. I want to be putting myself out there.

I hate to think about things or most of the time I am just living for the 'day', this has to stop. I've been worried about being personal online about writing my feelings but as I've decided to work on not caring ... I want to start blogging about my mission to be earning a living, to move out and move in with my partner, to gain more out of life. Its hard to explain whats been holding me back and I know its just this feeling that I'm not good enough or like the others.

Taken right before I wrote this because it just didn't feel like a post without a picture, with my "C" from Spain wearing my backup glasses.

photobooth + gpoy

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all in france but going home